Day two is now done

Well that's day two of the back to work scheme out of the way. It was slightly better today although lunchtime is still really strange not getting a phone call.

Lots of amazing people around me at the moment that are just making life so much more bearable and showing me that I can start to live again.

Life Goes On

I felt this before now I feel it again
No matter how hard I try this feeling won't end
So I pretend you're here by my side tonight, on this lonelyride
I keep telling myself that..

Life goes on while you're miles away
And I need you.
Time rolls on as nights steals the day
There's nothing I can do.

You healed up my wounds
I tasted your tears
you spilled out your heart
So I let out my fears
But one fear I kept to myself
How I prayed that you love no one else
Like you said you love me.

Life goes on while you're miles away
And I need you.
Time rolls on as nights steals the day
There's nothing I can do.

If you only knew how much I miss you.

When my mind plays its tricks on me
It shows me things I don't wanna see
So I tell myself and..
I keep telling myself self now
Just take another piece of me?

Life goes on while you're miles away
And I need you.
Time rolls on as nights steals the day
There's nothing I can do.

Love goes on you're still miles away
And I need you
And this last mile I travel with you.

- Life Goes On (Poison)

First day back

Well today was my first day back at work.
Certainly had some up and down moments. The journey in was horrible and I was fighting back the tears all the way. I always used to text Sharon from the bus stop every day I worked without fail and then waited for her to text back or give me a quick call just before she left for work :o(
Lunch time was completely weird too. Sharon always used to give me a quick call without fail and instead I just wandered around aimlessly trying to fill in my time.
I am sure it will all get better and it was nice to be back among my work colleagues again.

Plus Size Fashion Show

Well in a bid to try and get some normality back into my life I went to see a Plus Size Fashion Show that was being run by Just As Beautiful magazine on Friday night.

New girl band PLUS were there too:


Check them out: PLUS on Bebo
PLUS on MySpace
Real Girl Band website

ITV were there filming for a show, Fern Cotton aand Holly Willoughby were in attendance


I met some great people (Gilly, Angela, Keeley, Mishmash and Emma) and had a laugh (which can only be a good thing IMHO).
Here are some of my pics:

KEELEY, ME AND MISHMASH


GILLIAN AND ANGELA


CORSETS AHOY!!!!!

Don't You Ever Leave Me

The nights are wearing me down
And it`s hard getting through the day
`Cos I need you right now
And right now you`re so faraway

I guess I should have known
That I`d end up this way
But I swear I`ll come home
And then nothing will drag me away

Don`t you ever leave me baby
Don`t you ever leave me now
Don`t you ever leave me baby
If you leave me you will kill me now

Now that so much time has passed
I know that this love of ours will last forever
Cos we feel it, take it, hold it and believe it
You need me like I need you
I know you do, I'm sure you do

The lights are slowly going down
On Lexington Avenue
And me, I`m all alone feeling the tears
falling down from my eyes

A subway train is passing by
Driving into the Darkness
I jump inside `cos I ain`t got
nowhere to sleep tonight

Don`t you ever leave me baby
Don`t you ever leave me now
Don`t you ever leave me baby
If you leave me you will kill me now

I was forcing myself just to walk through the day
When all I really wanted to do was curl up in a corner and cry
Nothing had any meaning
And I just thought let's give it another day and see if anything happens
Then you came along like my own ray of sunshine
Made me feel warm, safe and alive again

- Don't You Ever Leave Me (Hanoi Rocks)

Million Miles Away

Took too much of this, had too much of that
But with you I never got enough
I thought there'd never be love in my life
And that's sad 'cos when I think what I could've had
It makes me feel so bad

I smoked a lot of sky, I drank a lot of rain
Anything to ease my pain
But now your touch is all it would take
And that's a shame 'cos I can never come home again

And you're a million miles away
I'll never get a chance to hold you
So my message is the wind
I pray that it gets through to you

Loving you was so easy
And leaving you was so very hard
And now I'm living in this ocean of blue
In the corner of a prison yard I should have listened to you

Now you´re a million miles away
I never get a chance to hold you

Please don't be thinking of me (x3)
Please just forget about me

- Million Miles Away (Hanoi Rocks)

Song For Absent Friends

Well I'll never forget the songs we sang
I can't believe you're gone forever
I've got a photo on my wall

And I, I've got a memory so strong
That lingers on and on forever
I can't believe you're really gone

Now and then when the party's over
I'll sit around and I'll think about you
And when I thought I was on the mend
I'll sing a song for absent friends

Do you remember all those times
I wonder can you hear me
I wish your time could start again

Some people say that life's too short
But it's too long without you
I suppose you'd hit me if you heard me say it

Well goodbye and good luck to you
Think of us now your party's over
I hope you're getting all the love we're sending
In this song for absent friends

Well I'll never forget the songs we sang
I can't believe you're gone forever
I've got a photo on my wall

And I, I've got a memory so strong
That lingers on and on forever
I can't believe you're really gone

So goodbye and good luck to you
Think of us now your party's over
I hope you're getting all the love we're sending
In this song for absent friends

Some people say that life's too short
But it's too long without you
I wish your time could start again

- Song For Absent Friends (Last Of The Teenage Idols)

Only One Reason

And if there's only one reason
To live in this world,
I'll find it...

SHARON GLORIA ASHMORE
Born 19th September 1964, Sharon unexpectedly passed away on Sunday 8th July 2007.
Sharon left behind a very loving family, mum and dad Barry and Gloria Ashmore, children Zoë and Toby Arnett, partner Keith Butland and his son Sam, sister Tracy Braddock, brother in law Darren, nephew Zach, and treasured family member Ron Arnett (Zoë & Toby’s father). Sharon was the life and soul of the party and had such an amazing smiley personality that rubbed off on everybody. Possessing the voice of an angel, music and singing were a passion for her and she was always ready to step up and entertain. Her cheery disposition and wonderful people centric manner made her perfectly suited for her job as receptionist at James Bryan Opticians in Chelmsford and she was well respected by both staff and customers.

Sharon will be greatly missed by everybody that knew her.

“Sorry that we never managed to realise our dream but I know that you had it all in your head and that we were already there. You make me so happy and I know that I did you.
Love you so much, forever and ALLways” (Keith Butland)

“I miss you Sis but still feel your touch, your kiss, your smile……………….” (Tracy Braddock)

“You are the best mum that we could ever ask for, thank you for being there for us, with love forever and always Zoë and Toby.“ (Zoë & Toby Arnett)

To my darling Sharon,
Words fail me as to what to say. I am going to miss you so much, we all are.
Sorry that we never managed to realise our dream but I know that you had it all in your head and that we were already there.
You make me so happy and I know that I did you.
Love you so much
Forever and ALLways
Keith
Your chunky monkey and snugglebug xxxxxxxxxxx

Person missing in the UK

MISSING!!!

ROUND YELLOW THING USUALLY FLOATS AROUND IN THE SKY!!!

ANSWERS TO THE NAME ''SUN''

IF U SEE HIM TELL HIM IT'S F***** JULY!!!

HERE'S A SKETCH ARTISTS IMPRESSION RELEASED BY THE POLICE TODAY!!!

Tick.....................Tock

Tick Tock
Is how the clock goes
In the real world
For the population at large
But for me this isn’t true
A different beat is audible
When I’m not with you

Tick……………… (pause)………………..Tock

Long

D r a w n o u t

Tick……………… (pause)………………..Tock

Time

Shuffling along

Tick……………… (pause)………………..Tock

You light up my life

You light up my life
And fill me with joy
Make me so happy
Your eyes melt my heart
Dive into my soul
Thank you for making me whole

My muse is so wonderful

My muse is so wonderful, she inspires and makes me so creative..........

Just for you

Cruising with the Westie!

Jack on our way back home from Stratford Upon Avon