Two on the trot

Well following on from yesterday I can hardly believe it, two good days on the trot!
Had a nice lay in this morning and then got up and spent a good few hours playing Halo 3 on the Xbox 360 before we headed into Chelmsford for the ice hockey.

Had a meal in Pizza Hut to kill some time and then were treated to Chelmsford Chieftains returning the to the way they played at the start of the season and a very entertainging, and well deserved, 3 - 2 win against Wightllink Raiders.

NHL Premiere 07 - LA Kings v Anaheim Ducks

Oh wow, what an evening! Sam and I went to the O2 Arena to see the LA Kings v Anaheim Ducks in their opening game for the new NHL season, dubbed the NHL Premiere 07.

The O2 is an amazing venue and the game was fantastic.

Sam and I on the train to the O2 Arena:



Sam with the O2 Arena in the background

Me with the O2 Arena in the background

The greatest prize of all in the NHL, the Stanley Cup!



Some pre-match insanity

Centre ice logo

Centre ice logo as lights dim for game introduction

Face off time

Bundle!

Fisticuffs on Frederick Street

Second period break entertainment, Hamster Run!


What's the scores on the board?
LA Kings 4 Anaheim Ducks 1 - WOOOO Result!

Just as I was getting over the trauma

Just as I was getting over the trauma of the past couple of days events I end up getting another kick in the teeth. Think I'll just a t-shirt made up with KICK ME printed on it!

I got a text tonight from another so-called friend (one who I thought would have told me about the party) asking if she could borrow my CD of Sharon singing and also if she could have some photos, no mention of the party though. Bit convenient that she suddenly asks for this the night before the party isn't it! Call me suspicious but I suspect that she wants this stuff for the party. Needless to say I won't be replying to the text in any hurry. If I am doing her an injustice then I apologise in advance however my instincts are fairly good and I just know that I am right about this, it's far too convenient for her to have suddenly, out of the blue, got in touch the day before the party after months of silence. The fact that she didn't mention the party is also confirmation that it is begin deliberately hidden from me.

I am so broken hearted, just don't know how much more of this I can take.....

Just Can't Get Enough

When I'm with you baby, I go out of my head
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough
All the things you do to me and everything you said
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough

We slip and slide as we fall in love
And I just cant seem to get enough

We walk together, were walking down the street
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough
Every time I think of you I know we have to meet
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough

Its getting hotter, its our burning love
And I just cant seem to get enough

And when it rains, you're shining down for me
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough
Just like a rainbow you know you set me free
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough

You're like an angel and you give me your love
And I just cant seem to get enough

- Just Can't Get Enough (Depeche Mode)

Just Drifting

Sometimes, just drifting
In this simple world
Like a country stream,
Asleep to discussion
(the numbness of content)
I see you smile drifting.
Like a country stream,
My little girl,
Precious and pure
As I fall back,
Into softness and sleep
You caress me with simple love
You possess me with simple love.

A caress is just a touch,
And you touched my heart, and now that we're together
You and I will never part.

You caress me with simple love,
You possess me with simple love,

Place becomes time
Space becomes mine
And all ways,
Like this robe,
Green like a country dream
You surround me, and cover me
Protect me and caress me
With that special simple love,

Sometimes, just drifting,
Like a country stream
Precious and pure,
I see you smile
Asleep to discussion
Of this simple word,
The numbness of content
Drifting
Like a country scene
As I fall back
Into softness and sleep
You possess me with simple love.

You caress me with simple love,
You possess me with simple love,
Space becomes time,
Place becomes mind
And all ways
Like this rose
Seen like a country stream
You surround me
And comfort me,
Protect me
And caress me
With that special simple love.

- Just Drifting (Psychic TV)

Big hugs to my friends

BIG HUGS to all my friends that are going through stuff at the moment.
It's a tough time for all of us in one way or another so just wanted to send some love and hugs to all of you.
Trash Queen Lollipop Shock!
xxx

Nothing can keep them apart

If a building gets torched, all that is left is ashes. I used to think that was true about everything; families, friends, feelings. But now I now that if love proves real, two people were meant to be together, nothing can keep them apart.

Real love is forever

If the people we love are stolen from us, the only way they have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, real love is forever.

I feel betrayed

Oh well, so much for getting over yesterday's little rant.

Found out tonight that I am probably the only person that didn't know about the party.

It's on Saturday night and I am not invited.

Even the family knew about it and were invited and nobody even hinted to me that something was happening despite talking to me loads of times over the last few days. I thought you were all supposed to be my friends?

I feel sick. Angry. Disappointed. Hurt.

I feel BETRAYED.

Makes me wonder if anybody else I know was aware that this little farcical event was going ahead.

I guess everything has been put into perspective for me now. I mean nothing, I am nothing. To the world my feelings for Sharon don't mean shit. I'm just a small piece of history that can be conveniently written out of the plot to make the script run as others feel it should be. If we all try hard enough we can pretend he never existed!

And this all just leads me on to the song below which just about sums up how I am right now, ALONE!

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
When the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walkin down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
And know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ahAh-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
When the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

- Boulevard Of Broken Dreams (Green Day)

IT

First IT was
Then IT knew IT was
And that was IT

A rant of Foamy proportions

I have mastered the Zen of Anger, just like Foamy!


So here is my rant, apologies but I just have to get this off of my chest.

I found out today that someone I know is holding a special birthday "memorial" party for Sharon. The person who told me said that his wife went ballistic when she found out about it. Neither of them will be going. I am ranting because I knew nothing of this at all. I find it utterly incredible that a party could be held for Sharon and I not be included in the preparations or even invited to it. Just what the fuck is going on? How insensitive can people be? There is no way on earth that I wouldn't have found out about this at some point! So as it is, people that I thought were my friends are obviously not (and I'm not just talking about the people organising this little charade but also those that have been complicit in keeping this from me) . Personally I feel insulted and hurt and as far as I am concerned not including me shows complete and utter disrespect for my darling Sharon. I was the man she loved, I was the man she had chosen to spend the rest of her life with and yet a party could be held in her memory with me excluded? Now that is just completely fucked up!

Joyeux anniversaire

"Joyeux anniversaire" to Mike Miles at work!
Knowing how much you love being call a French American and your love of Quebec I hope you like the flags!



Seriously though, happy 50th mate!

Flat

Well life is just peachy , NOT!
I just feel like I am plodding along at the moment with no real direction in my life and it sucks big time.
I am keeping myself busy, catching up with friends, going out, doing stuff at the house but after any initial feel good factor it's always back down to earth with a shocking bump.
Last couple of days have been pretty stressful for one reason and another and I had to deal with a whole load of things that I could really done without but hopefully know that matter is closed and I can move on from it.
Still, tomorrow is Wednesday, weekend approaching and lots of good things coming up..........

I Remember You

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through

I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

We spend the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe, without a sound
I said I'd give my life for just one kiss
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

We've had our share of hard times
But that's the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you'll never be lonely

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
'Cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

- I Remember You (Skid Row)

There are no good days

A startling revelation hit me on the way into work this morning: THERE ARE NO GOOD DAYS!
No day can ever be seen as good. Every day I wake up and Sharon is still gone and never ever coming back. How can anything ever be good when I have to face that every morning?

Just chilling

Spent the day chilling today.
Sam and Aaron spent most of their time playing on the Xbox360 and Toni and I just chatted and listened to music (and drank lots of coffee). I cooked a nice Sunday dinner.
It was nice to have some company and was great to see the two of them. The house did seem kind of empty once they had left.

Friends and ice hockey

Well today has been productive and fun. Got all the housework done first thing and then Toni and her son Aaron came to stay. All four of us indulged in a lazy Tex Mex meal before heading off to Chelmsford to see the Chieftains struggle to a 3 - 6 to local rivals Romford Raiders.

Game was quite enjoyable and it was nice to actually have someone to talk to during period breaks as Sam usually runs off to talk to one of his school friends.

Once we got home we watched a DVD and chatted until the small hours

Good Day

so you dont want to hear about my good song?
and you dont want to hear about how i am getting on
with all the things that i can get done
the sun is in the sky & i am by my lonesome
so you don't want to hear about my good day?
you have better things to do than to hear me say

god its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
i took out the trash today and i'm on fire...

so you don't want to hear about my good friends?
you dont have the guts to take the truth or consequence
success is in the eye of the beholder
and its looking even better over your cold shoulder

i'm not suggesting you up and line me up for questioning
but jesus think about the bridges you are burning
and i'm betting
that even though you knew it from the start
you'd rather be a bitch than be an ordinary broken heart

so go ahead and talk about your bad day...
i want all the details of the pain and misery
that you are inflicting on the others
i consider them my sisters and i'd like their numbers

god its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
i took up croquet today and i'm on fire

i picked up the pieces of my broken ego
i have finally made my peace as far as you and me go
but i'd love to have you up to see the place
& i'd like to do more than survive i'd like to rub it in your face.....

hey! its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
i had so much fun today and i'm on fire
god it's been a lovely day everything's been going my way
ever since you went away hey i'm on fire.....
i'm on fire...
i'm on fire...
so you dont want to hear about my good day?

- Good Day (Dresden Dolls)

Never Gonna Fall In Love Again

No use pretending things can still be right
There's really nothing more to say
Ill get along without your kiss good night
Just close the door and walk away

Never gonna fall in love again
I don't wanna start with someone new
Cause I couldn't bear to see it end
Just like me and you
No, I never wanna feel the pain
Of remembering how it used to be
Never gonna fall in love again
Just like you and me

At first we thought that love was here to stay
The summer made it seem so right
But like the sun we watched it fade away
From morning into lonely night

Never gonna fall in love again
I don't wanna start with someone new
Cause I couldn't bear to see it end
Just like me and you
No, I never wanna feel the pain
Of remembering how it used to be
Never gonna fall in love again
Just like you and me

- Never Gonna Fall In Love Again (Eric Carmen)

Holly & Fearne Go Dating - now online

Hehehe,
OK, here is the link to watch the Holly & Fearne Go Dating show that Gilly, Keeley, Emma and I were on, you need Internet Explorer to watch this. Only a brief glimpse of me but what the heck!
http://www.itv.com/?vodcrid=crid://itv.com/5678

It's OK to be OK

Today was a much better day. After the angst, upset an emotions of the last couple of days it was nice just to have an OK day.

Got home from work, put a roast dinner on, made up the CD rack, sorted all my CDs out, had dinner and then chilled. Listened to loads of music, chatted to people on MSN and not a tear in site which was a welcome change.

The Misfits 30th Anniversary Tour

Just been to see The Misfits on their 30th Anniversary Tour at the Electric Ballroom in Camden with my friend Sara.

We started our evening in the World's End pub.

Sara, looking a bit goth punky



It's that fat old goth queen thing again!



The gig was superb, sound was great. We missed the first support band Spit Like This but caught The Briefs who were good and got the crowd going.

The Misfits were fantastic, played a wonderful set of classics plus a few Black Flag numbers thrown in for good measure.

About half way though Sara and I both raised our glasses and toasted Sharon.

Line up this time was:
Jerry Only - bass and vocals
Dez Cadena - guitar
Robo - drums

This blur is Jerry Only

Happy Birthday my darling Sharon, and one question....

Happy Birthday to my darling Sharon.
I miss you so much
Love you forever and ALLways xxx



Today was going to be such a special day. We would have been in the new house now and you always said that we had to wait until the house was sorted until we could think about getting married. I have already spoken to your dad and he said that it would be OK for me to ask you to marry me. So today was going to be that day that I asked you.

And now I am sitting here with tears rolling down my cheeks holding the ring in my hand and just asking myself, "WHY?"

I know you've seen the ring, I know you loved it and you did wear it for two days before your funeral and that will have to do now. So here it is, your ring, and I know I'll get no answer to this now but I have to ask anyway.

Sharon Gloria Ashmore, will you make me the happiest man alive and agree to marry me?



Happy birthday once again darling, I miss you so much, love you forever and ALLways xxxxx


Some people say that life's too short
But it's too long without you
I wish your time could start again

Tuesday's Gone

Train roll on, on down the line,
Won't you please take me far away?
Now I feel the wind blow outside my door,
Means I'm leaving my woman behind.
Tuesday's gone with the wind.
My woman's gone with the wind.

And I don't know where I'm going.
I just want to be left alone.
Well, when this train ends I'll try again,
But I'm leaving my woman at home.

Tuesday's gone with the wind.
Tuesday's gone with the wind.
Tuesday's gone with the wind.
My woman's gone with the wind.

Train roll on many miles from my home,
See, I'm riding my blues away.
Tuesday, you see, she had to be free
But somehow I've got to carry on.

Tuesday's gone with the wind.
Tuesday's gone with the wind.
Tuesday's gone with the wind.
My woman's gone with the wind.

- Tuesday's Gone (Lynyrd Skynyrd)

Pepsi Tate RIP dude (1965 - 2007)

I can't believe it, it never rains but it pours.
Just found out that Pepsi Tate, bass player for Tigertailz has just died.
He was a great bloke and I have some cracking memories of watching Tigertailz over the years as well as some wild parties with the Dayz Lane crew. Have to admit that I had a major crush on Pepsi way back in the 80s and I remember telling my friend Sara that I rated him 10 out of 10 (which really cheesed her off as I had rated her 9.5)

RIP dude, keep on rocking


Pepsi and Jay Pepper (l - r)

Whatever happened to Fay Wray?

Whatever happened to Fay Wray?
That delicate satin draped frame
As it clung to her thigh, how I started to cry
'Cause I wanted to be dressed just the same
Give yourself over to absolute pleasure
Swim the warm waters of sins of the flesh
Erotic nightmares beyond any measure
And sensual daydreams to treasure forever
Can't you just see it. Whoa ho ho!
Don't dream it, be it
Don't dream it, be it

Don't dream it, be it
Don't dream it, be it
Don't dream it, be it
Don't dream it, be it
Don't dream it, be it
Don't dream it, be it
Don't dream it, be it

Ach! We've got to get out of this trap
Before this decadence saps our wills
I've got to be strong and try to hang on
Or else my mind, may well snap
And my life will be lived
For the thrills
Don't dream it, be it
Don't dream it, be it

Don't dream it, be it

It's beyond me
Help me, Mommy

God bless Lili St. Cyr

- Don't Dream It, Be It (Rocky Horror Picture Show)

Sharon is just so very beautiful

The gang's all here!

Here's all the cuddly friends that Sharon and I bought each other......

Another tough morning

Struggled to get up this morning. It just seemed like too much effort but I did manage it.
Had another wonderful emotional crash on the train on the way in which sucked. I love remember Sharon and thinking of all the great times but it's not so hot bursting into tears on a packed train. God it's lucky that I don't wear eyeliner all the time otherwise I'd have looked like a panda at work! Bracing myself for tomorrow, that is going to be a really tough one.

New music

Haven't done this for a while so thought I would share some wonderful music with you folk out there (well the three of you that read this LMFAO)

JEFFREE STAR

What can you say about Jeffree Star that hasn't been scrawled in blood and other assorted bodily fluids in dirty bathrooms all over the southern United States, or said by the whorish super promoter himself, or written in countless internet paparazzi blogs, or dreamt about by millions of teenagers and just as many adult closet mannequins?

MySpace: www.myspace.com/jeffreestar


PLAYRADIOPLAY

My name is Dan. 18. Edge. Texan. That's really all there is to know about me.
Boredom is the reason I make music, and nerdiness is the reason I make electronic music.

MySpace: www.myspace.com/playradioplay


THE STRAIGHTS

The Straights are a 3 piece indie rock n roll band based in Essex.

MySpace: www.myspace.com/thestraights


So there you have it, enjoy (or not). I like them all so I don't care anyway!

Duck jokes (sorry........)

Duck desperate for a shag and asks room service for some condom's to be sent to the room..
Room service says they'll be put on his bill.
Duck says "FUCK OFF.......I'm not a pervert"


A duck walks into a bar and asks: "Got any bread?"
Barman says: "No."
Duck says: "Got any bread?"
Barman says: "No."
Duck says: "Got any bread?"
Barman says: "No, we have no bread."
Duck says: "Got any bread?"
Barman says: "No, we haven't got any f*cking bread."
Duck says: "Got any bread?"
Barman says: "No, are you deaf?! We haven't got any f*cking bread, for Christ's sake. Ask me again and I'll nail your f*cking beak to the bar you irritating baxtard of a f*cking bird!"
Duck says: "Got any nails?"
Barman says: "No."
Duck says: "Got any bread?"


A duck walks into a bar and says to the bar tender "I'll have a beer".
The bartender says "Hey! where did you come from?"
The duck says "I'm working the construction site across the street".
And the bartender says, "Well why are you working construction when you could be making millions in the circus?"
And the duck said "What would the circus want with a brick laying duck?"


A couple order a set meal for two in a Chines restaurant - waiter brings all the dishes out and leaves them to it.
Suddenly the wife screams .... "The lid on that dish just moved and I saw two eyes looking at me"
The scream got the attention of the waiter and the wife explained what she had seen.
"Ah" he said - "That's the peeking Duck"


How do you make a duck into a country singer?
Stick it in the microwave till it's Bill withers.


Man walks into a pub with a duck under his arm, and says "This is Donald, the talking duck. He understands every word I say".
The landlord says "Prove it and I'll give you free beer for the night"
Man says "Donald, what's your favourite street drug of choice?"
Donald says nothing.
Man asks him "Donald, what day is it?"
Donald says nowt.
Landlord chucks them both out into the street. As the man is about to punt the duck over the nearest house, Donald pipes up
"Hang on fella. Wait and see what odds you get tomorrow ......"


A duck walks into a bar. He looks like the happiest duck in the world. The bartender asks, "Why are you so happy today?"
The duck replies, "I've been playing in puddles all day." The duck proceeds to order a beer and enjoy it at the bar.
A little while later another duck walks in the bar. He looks like the second happiest duck in the world. The bartender asks, "Why are you so happy today?"
The duck gives the bartender the same answer, "I've been playing in puddles all day." This duck also orders a beer and enjoys it at the bar.
A third duck enters the bar, the total opposite of the first two ducks. He looks like the saddest duck in the world. The bartender asks the duck, "What's wrong with you?"
The duck replies, "My name is Puddles and I've had a terrible day."


A duck walks into a pub and says to the barman, "Has my brother been in here"
The barman says "What does he look like?"

Empathy or just pathetic? (MAJOR RANT)

MAJOR RANT TIME. Sorry folks, but I just HAVE voice this one.
OK, I know some people feel the need to try and be nice but sometimes empathy just comes across as plain pathetic!
Everybody that knew Sharon must miss her, that I can understand. That is a real no brainer in my book. But why oh why do people try and think they are on the same level as me?
"It's hard for all of us", yes I suppose it is. You spoke to Sharon once every three months tops and saw her maybe twice a year so I guess that is comparable with how I am feeling right now.

My all time classic so far was this one earlier today:
"Yeah, know what you are going through, I've not had a decent nights sleep in ages."
OMG, what the f***. You have NO idea what I am going through, NO idea at all. Do you have any idea of the loneliness I feel now that my partner is gone? I cry myself to sleep at night talking to Sharon's picture (when I can finally be bothered to drag my sorry butt to bed). I burst into tears at stupid moments (like on the train to work or in the middle of the dance floor at Pink Toothbrush).
I am sorry but you really, really, honestly, truly do not have a clue how I am feeling, and be VERY grateful for that cos it really sucks.
Empathy? Nah pathetic!

OK, rant over, normal service will now be resumed. And for those of you in my regular support network, this is not aimed at any of you. You all know who you are so please don't worry as I would have told you if you had peed me off!

A Brush eye view

As promised, here are the pics from the Pink Toothbrush last night!

Hazel looking decidedly vampy!


Some old goth fart!


Kate, Kat and Hazel looking dodgy outside the Toothbrush


Hazel, Kate and Kat propping up the bar!


(l - r): Keith, Hazel, Kate and Kat

Can't do this anymore

OK, jokes over..
I can't do this anymore. I want my Sharon back, I can't live my life without her. I don't want to live my life without her. I thought maybe it would be alright but its not. This SUCKS, big style. Hate going out and trying to enjoy myself without Sharon. Hate doing anything without Sharon. Burst into tears on the dance floor at Pink Toothbrush tonight, not good. I don't want to do things alone anymore. I want my hopes and future back, don't want to find a new path, the one I had was good.
Come back Sharon, please, I beg you, I need you so much......

The philosophy of ambiguity

1. DON'T SWEAT THE PETTY THINGS AND DON'T PET THE SWEATY THINGS.

2. ONE TEQUILA, TWO TEQUILA, THREE TEQUILA, FLOOR.....

3. ATHEISM IS A NON-PROPHET ORGANIZATION.

4. IF MAN EVOLVED FROM MONKEYS AND APES, WHY DO WE STILL HAVE MONKEYS AND APES?

5. THE MAIN REASON SANTA IS SO JOLLY IS BECAUSE HE KNOWS WHERE ALL THE BAD GIRLS LIVE.

6. I WENT TO A BOOKSTORE AND ASKED THE SALESWOMAN, "WHERE'S THE SELF-HELP SECTION?" SHE SAID IF SHE TOLD ME, IT WOULD DEFEAT THE PURPOSE.

7. WHAT IF THERE WERE NO HYPOTHETICAL QUESTIONS?

8. IF A MUTE PERSON SWEARS, DOES HIS MOTHER WASH HIS HANDS WITH SOAP?

9. IF SOMEONE WITH MULTIPLE PERSONALITIES THREATENS TO KILL HIMSELF, IS IT CONSIDERED A HOSTAGE SITUATION?

10. IS THERE ANOTHER WORD FOR SYNONYM?

11. WHERE DO FOREST RANGERS GO TO "GET AWAY FROM IT ALL?"

12. WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU SEE AN ENDANGERED ANIMAL EATING AN ENDANGERED PLANT?

13. IF A PARSLEY FARMER IS SUED, CAN THEY GARNISH HIS WAGES?

14. WOULD A FLY WITHOUT WINGS BE CALLED A WALK?

15 WHY DO THEY LOCK PETROL STATION BATHROOMS? ARE THEY AFRAID SOMEONE WILL CLEAN THEM?

16. IF A TURTLE DOESN'T HAVE A SHELL, IS HE HOMELESS OR NAKED?

17. CAN VEGETARIANS EAT ANIMAL CRACKERS? 1

8. IF THE POLICE ARREST A MIME, DO THEY TELL HIM HE HAS THE RIGHT TO REMAIN SILENT?

19. WHY DO THEY PUT BRAILLE ON THE DRIVE-THROUGH BANK MACHINES?

20. HOW DO THEY GET DEER TO CROSS THE ROAD ONLY AT THOSE YELLOW ROAD SIGNS? 2

11. WHAT WAS THE BEST THING BEFORE SLICED BREAD?

22. ONE NICE THING ABOUT EGOTISTS: THEY DON'T TALK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE.

23. DOES THE LITTLE MERMAID WEAR AN ALGEBRA?

24. DO INFANTS ENJOY INFANCY AS MUCH AS ADULTS ENJOY ADULTERY?

25. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO HAVE A CIVIL WAR?

26. IF ONE SYNCHRONIZED SWIMMER DROWNS, DO THE REST DROWN TOO?

27. IF YOU ATE BOTH PASTA AND ANTIPASTO, WOULD YOU STILL BE HUNGRY?

28. IF YOU TRY TO FAIL, AND SUCCEED, WHICH HAVE YOU DONE?

29. WHOSE CRUEL IDEA WAS IT FOR THE WORD "LISP" TO HAVE "S" IN IT?

30. WHY ARE HEMORRHOIDS CALLED "HEMORRHOIDS" INSTEAD OF "ASTEROIDS"?

31. WHY IS IT CALLED TOURIST SEASON IF WE CAN'T SHOOT AT THEM?

32. WHY IS THERE AN EXPIRATION DATE ON SOUR CREAM?

33. IF YOU SPIN AN ORIENTAL MAN IN A CIRCLE THREE TIMES DOES HE BECOME DISORIENTED?

34. CAN AN ATHEIST GET INSURANCE AGAINST ACTS OF GOD?

It's Toothbrush time again!

Wooo, it's Friday and that means it's Toothbrush time again. Tonight I am off to the Pink Toothbrush with Hazel and Kat (and maybe a couple of others). Had a crap couple of days so hopefully this will cheer me up a little bit. Photos, as ever, will be posted at some point!

Amphetamine Blue

My whole world's turned amphetamine blue,
Now I'm livin' without you.
My whole world's turned amphetamine blue,
An' I don't know what I'm gonna do.

Well she up an' left me just the other day,
I thought that she was foolin' an' wouldn't go away.
We had our ups an' downs baby I know,
I Promise never to argue if you won't go.

My whole world's turned amphetamine blue,
Now I'm livin' without you.
My whole world's turned amphetamine blue,
An' I don't know what I'm gonna do.

Well I can't face my room alone tonight,
I'd rather walk the city 'til broad daylight.
She was the best girl I had for sure,
I couldn't believe she'd walk out through that door.

My whole world's turned amphetamine blue,
Now I'm livin' without you.
My whole world's turned amphetamine blue,
An' I don't think I’m gonna come through

If you're desperate sure any girl'll do,
But she was someone I could talk to.
I never really appreciated what she'd done.
But she was the one I set my heart on.

My whole world's turned amphetamine blue,
Now I'm livin' without you.
My whole world's turned amphetamine blue,
An' I don't know what I'm gonna do.

My whole world's turned amphetamine blue,
Now I'm livin' without you.
My whole world's turned amphetamine blue,
An' I don't think I’m gonna come through

- Amphetamine Blue (The Vibrators)

Life With You

When I was a younger man
When I was a silly boy
I didn’t need a thing,
I was strong as anything,
I viewed solitude as a joy

But since I met you I’m distraught
You wandered in and now I’m caught
I never thought I would see
Someone so truly good
Some one who’s so everything I’m not

I want to spend my life with you
Don’t want to live all alone
I can’t conceive of the years left in me
Without you in our home

But what if, what if, what if what
If it’s not perfect then it’s not
But every care I’ll take
Nothing I won’t forsake
To dwell beside what you’ve got

Every time I think about you
I think I can’t live without you
I’ll tell you something
I am nothing without you

I want to spend my life with you
Don’t want to live all alone
I can’t conceive of the years left in me
Without you in our home

I want to spend my life with you
Don’t want to live all alone
I can’t conceive of the years left in me

Without you in our home
Without you in our home

- Life With You (The Proclaimers)

My car of choice

WOW!!!! I want one of these!

Another bad morning

Oh well, I went quite a while before getting all emotional again.
Dunno what sets it off but I was on the train to work this morning with tears falling down my face for ages. God I miss Sharon so much..........

OMG I was on the TV!

Well I just watched Holly & Fearne Go Dating and who should I see on the TV sitting at a table at the Plus Size Fashion Show? You guessed it, little old me!
Will download the stream once it is available on ITV.com and edit and post the bit with me in!

Holly & Fearne Go Dating - ITV1 @ 22:00

Well tonight is the night we've all been waiting for.
Watch my friend Emma on Holly & Fearne Go Dating - ITV1 @ 22:00
The night I met Emma she (along with Gilly and Keeley, see the Plus Size Fashion Show entry) was interviewed by Holly Willoughby and Fearne Cotton for their new show Holly & Fearne Go Dating. Out of the three girls interviewed Emma was the one that was selected to appear on the show and she spent last Thursday filming it in London. Should be interesting to watch!
Find out more about the show here: Holly & Fearne Go Dating

Fuzzy brain

OK so today I have a fuzzy brain!
Three bottles of wine on a school night was probably not such a good idea! LMFAO

Friend in crisis - alcohol support unit in attendance!

Whizzing off to Wickford tonight to see Hazel.
She's having a real tough time at the moment so I've got a couple of bottles of wine and we are going to get s***faced. Sure it won't help either of us really but what the heck LOL

Thanks for nothing BT

Oh well, despite getting a text from BT telling me that my line fault has been resolved I still can't dial out! Guess its time to call up and get stuck in the hold queue all over again! Aaaaaargggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!

Teo Torriatte (Let Us Cling Together)

When I'm gone
No need to wonder if I ever think of you
The same moon shines
The same wind blows
For both of us, and time is but a paper moon...
Be not gone

Though I'm gone
It's just as though I hold the flower that touches you
A new life grows
The blossom knows
There's no one else could warm my heart as much as you...
Be not gone

Let us cling together as the years go by
Oh my love, my love
In the quiet of the night
Let our candle always burn
Let us never lose the lessons we have learned

Teo torriatte konomama iko
Aisuruhito yo
Shizukana yoi ni
Hikario tomoshi
Itoshiki oshieo idaki

Hear my song
Still think of me the way you've come to think of me
The nights grow long
But dreams live on
Just close your pretty eyes and you can be with me...
Dream on

Teo torriatte konomama iko
Aisuruhito yo
Shizukana yoi ni
Hikario tomoshi
Itoshiki oshieo idaki

When I'm gone
They'll say we're all fools and we don't understand
Oh be strong
Don't turn your heart
We're all
You're all
For all
For always

Let us cling together as the years go by
Oh my love, my love
In the quiet of the night
Let our candle always burn
Let us never lose the lessons we have learned

- Teo Torriatte (Let Us Cling Together) (Queen)

Just got a text from BT...

... saying that my fault is now fixed so when I get home tonight I might actually be able to call other people! Time will tell..................but fingers crossed.

Normal service has been resumed

Sam and I took in our first ice hockey match of the season tonight (and our first ever EPL game).
Chelmsford Chieftains beat Guildford Flames 2 - 1 in a well deserved victory. We'll definately be going back again and we will probably end up with season tickets. Sam was delighted to see a girl from his tutor group there so he definately wants to go back now!

Was nice to meet Rob, Graham B, Brighton Tiger, Pete and co...

Big thumbs up to Rob for getting us home safely and offering us lifts back home on Sunday too.

Forbidden Planet

Promised Sam a trip to Forbidden Planet in London today and he loved it. We both met up with Toni and went for a major mooch around FP with all three of us spending money that we probably shouldn't have!

Following that we went to Pizza Hut for lunch before going our separate ways. Toni and Sam seemed to get on really well and she certainly made a lasting imression on Sam (possibly for the wrong reasons as I almost had to call time out when he gave her a hug LOL)

Inferno: devil in a black dress

Well tonight was another night of decadence and I dressed to kill! Tonight was a night for really blowing minds and it went down a storm.

It was lovely to meet Tasha, Pete and Fiona tonight.

So here is the devil in a black dress:


Ooooh, nice legs!:



My best friend Toni looking cute:

BT phone home

Wooo!
Well today was almost a good result!
BT engineer turned up and it was Mark from Keats Square so that was a good start.
As a result of his valiant efforts I do at least now have broadband and a phone line that accepts calls. There is still a problem with making calls but that is being looked into.

Starlight Walk

Tonight, Zoe and I accompanied the staff of James Bryan Opticians on the Starlight Walk in Chelmsford. We had originally been roped into doing it by Sharon so the only sensible thing to do was to continue that commitment.
It was a five mile walk around Chelmsford in aid of breast cancer research.
Check out the Starlight Walk website: www.starlightwalk.co.uk

So here are the pics!

Does my head look big in this?


The Man In Pink!


(L-R) Claire, Pete, Sandra (front), Bev (back), Zoe, Tracy, James, Lisa


Who's the extra from Brokeback Mountain? LOL