There I was sitting in the office doing what I do and dealing with crisis after crisis when suddenly dysphoria hits and I feel like I want to cry. I didn't feel like me, my brain, my heart and my body were all at odds with one another. I know what I want to be like but it certainly isn't this mess.
It totally derailed me as I haven't had an episode like this for quite a while. I was quietly comfortable just being me and suddenly me was a stranger and me was a mess.
Thankfully a wonderful text from Toni (after I'd given her the lowdown on things) snapped me back to a better position. I dread to think what life would be like without her calming influence helping to guide to the safe places.
Feeling strengthened by Toni's amazing support I got through the rest of the day and then it was home and time to do some things to allow me to continue to stay on top.
Gender dysphoria sucks, it will get you when you least expect it. Get stuffed gender dysphoria!
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