GREETINGS FROM AIRSHIP GLITZVILLE!
The splendiferous exciting adventures and inane ramblings of KT Glitz and his beautiful wife Toni Glitz. There will also be garbage talked about music, movies and Star Wars, a LOT of Star Wars!
If you can't be a good example, you'll just have to be a horrible warning!
Never forget your dreams, they are the hopes of the future!
Went to the Town Crier tonight for a drink with Dren Pyke, a guy I met at one of Sara's parties who has now moved to South Woodham Ferrers (well almost). Ironically he is now friends with (sort of seeing) Emma! Dren is moving into his new rented house in SWF this coming weekend and Emma is moving into his house in Watford so go figure!
A band a band, abandon ship! The purpose of this meeting was with a view getting a band together for some musical collaboration! Meeting went well with Dren's mate Norman joining us a bit later. We are all going to chuck in a couple of songs each, learn them and then get together and have a jam and see what happens.
We had a great laugh and got on well so hopefully it will be the start of something good.
As for Jeff Lynne's underpants, I expect you are wondering what the fook that is all about. I think I'll save that story for another day.............
Whatever happened to rock and roll? Three and a half minutes of cheesy bubblegum anthems seem to be a dying breed and I just don't like it!
Have been having a wail of a time listening to "old skool" tunes from the likes of Peppermint Creeps, Heart Throb Mob, Sick Six Crush, Pretty Boy Floyd, Tuff, Poison etc
Don't get me wrong, I am all for long, well structured complex songs but you cannot beat bubblegum rock/pop/dance!
Some fine examples can be found in my LastFM playlist in the TRASH QUEEN LOLLIPOP ROCKZ block on the right, just click play to have them blasting out!
And let's not forget the much missed extravagant dress of these bands!
Sophie has been invited to an interview at a salon in Great Baddow on Monday. It's good to see that she is getting a steady progression of interest based on her CV. Now all she has to do is nail one and she'll be well on the road to independence. Strange to think that my little girl is now all growded up!
Just spoken to my mum who had just got back from the hospital visiting my nan. Seems we don't know much more than before. They have now ascertained that the tumor in her brain has been there for quite a while and is not connected in any way to the stomach cancer she had years ago. This is now more than likely the cause of her forgetfulness and general decline.
There is still no prognosis so we have no idea whether she has weeks, months or years to live. Heck we don't even know how much my nan knows or is aware of. Mum is going back to the hospital tomorrow and will be asking a lot more questions.
There is still no update on when she might be leaving hospital either but they did mention to my mum about her going into a home and they have the Macmillan nurses going to see her tomorrow. She doesn't need medical care but will need domestic/palliative care.
I'm scared. I want to go and see nan but I am really scared. Death has been around me far too much in the last six months what with Sharon, Pepsi and then Lady Jaye. not sure I can deal with any more at the moment (even the thought of it).
I can't believe my rotten luck! I had a bit of a dilemma coming up on the 9th of February as I had bought tickets to see Peppermint Creeps in Camden but it was also the rescheduled Vendetta Club opening night and I really didn't know which to go to as I love the Peppermint Creeps but had also promised Cat and Steve Vendetta that I'd go to their club.
I had reached a compromise where I was going to buy tickets to go and see the Creeps in Croydon so that I could still go to Vendetta.
As it turns out I no longer have a dilemma as it transpires that immigration refused Peppermint Creeps to come in to the UK so the tour has now been cancelled.
Am totally gutted as I really wanted to see them but at least it now frees up my calendar and hopefully I'll be able to get a refund on the tickets.
Sophie, Sam, Toni and I went to the O2 Arena to see Linkin Park tonight.
Kicked off the proceedings with a cracking meal in Nandos:
Sam
Sophie
Me
Toni
Rock poses!
After the meal we headed off to the O2 and started off thinking about having a drink first. Couldn't decide on a venue to go to but we were all very amused by the wonderfully names Cafe S&M!
We then decided to wait in line in a massive queue! After what seemed like forever we finally got to our seats (and what great seats they were) and settled down to watch the support band.
Fluffy Gyro (sorry BIFFY CLYRO) WTF is that all about? NOT a good band to have as a warm up for someone like Linkin Park. Despite receiving much critical acclaim in the press I just don't get it. I could imagine in a small packed and very drunk student bar they would go down a storm but three guys with no stage presence playing experimental pretentious art twonk in a 17,000 seat arena, give me a break! The singer even had the front to say "thank you ladies and gentleman" in Spanish! FWIW, here they are:
I pray our paths never cross again.
Which brings us nicely on to LINKIN PARK. A band thought of by many as being designed for 13 year old EMO kids I did wonder if they had ideas above their station playing two nights at the O2. I was so glad to be proved wrong! The place was rocking and the band were superb, great musicians as well as great showmen, just want we needed after the support band! They even managed a comedy moment with a very brief rendition of Rhiana's Umbrella Song which the crowd sang along too!
Well BT Vision actually! Got my box today and Setanta Sports viewing card so I'll now be able to start recording and watching those lovely NHL ice hockey games, YAY!
Have been feeling a bit strange emotionally all weekend. Dunno why. Maybe it was seeing Barry and Gloria again (although Sophie and I did see Barry the week before). I feel very drained. Oh I dunno, maybe I just need to try and get more sleep! Sometimes I think I am going mad, brain running mad all over the place, thinking too much, juggling memories, thoughts and emotions.
Someone lock me up and throw away the key LOL
Stop the world I want to get off!
On the plus side I have tomorrow off and we're off to see Linkin Park.
A very bizarre game that had me bored through most of it. I was dreading the game as the Chieftains had been humped 10 - 5 the night before by Guildford. Chieftains came out with a plan at the start which left them leading 1 - 0 at the end of the first period. After a delay in the play due to ice problems this plan then went out of the window for the second period then ended up the wrong end of a 1 - 3 scoreline. I really was praying for the game to be over with about 7 minutes left in the second. Third period was a little better with the Chieftains at least trying to get something back and despite their best efforts and pulling Moffat at the end they only managed to claw back to 2 - 3.
In other news the Capitals managed to scrape a 5 - 4 overtime win over Basingstoke Bison. This was a game where they really needed to get a definitive win to catch the Bison and although the Capitals get the full 2 points the Bison also get 1 for going into overtime.
Play off dreams for both the Chieftains and Capitals are fading fast!
Woke up this morning in a lot of pain, back and neck hurting. After a nice back massage the back seemed to improve although my neck hasn't really improved :o( Wonder if I am coming down with something as I have been really tired of late and the back and neck pains could be something else.
Spent the afternoon just lazing about with Toni, had a very late breakfast/lunch and watched a couple of DVDs and drank tea.
At around 17:00 Sam's friends Olivia and Sam came round as I had agreed to let them stay the night. Watched a DVD with them for a bit and then all four kids went upstairs to play on the Xbox 360. I made them chicken and chips and then we left them to it and Toni and I went elsewhere to browse the net.
I went to bed early and crashed out straight away and woke up a few times to hear the dulcet tones of loads of kids still talking and playing! Think they all finally crashed out at about 06:30!
Got up way too early for a Saturday morning and did a load of washing and then we headed off to Chelmsford to do a little shopping. Sam popped off to Games Workshop and bought a couple of books and Sophie got herself a good deal on a new mobile phone. Strangely I didn't actually buy anything!
Toni came round tonight, dropped off the kids at swimming and then made a huge batch of lasagne! I love lasagne so I was most pleased!
Kids called and Toni went to pick them up while I popped in to see Barry and Gloria and give Barry his birthday card. It was nice to see them both well and Gloria seemed in much better spirits than she has been over the last couple of months. She seems slightly less troubled than she has been. I know she is still still hurting deep, as are we all, but she at least seems to have a little of her spark back.
Started reading "Broken Harts - The Life And Death Of Broken Hart". There was a very poignant part that triggered a bit of a flashback for me on the train this morning, on the Friday before he died he started talking (out of the blue) to his wife Martha about what would happen if he died which obviously she got a bit upset about.
FLASHBACK............ Friday 06/07/07 Met Sharon from work and we drove back to SWF. As we approached the flat we noticed that the For Sale sign on the garden wall was gone but thought nothing of it.
Saturday 07/07/07 After busting a gut all day clearing out and doing more packing ready for the big move Sharon sat down and said something really strange, "You know sometimes you hear about things happening with house moves and chains being blown apart?" (we were due to exchange contracts on the new house at the the time which is why it was strange) I just held her hand and told her not to be silly and that nothing was going to happen.
Was the missing For Sale sign a heads up of bad things to come? Did she know something? Am I reading too much into all this? Owen Hart out of the blue said strange things and then died almost immediately afterwards. Sharon did the same. Synchronicity? Maybe I am just going out of my head now and it's all getting too much?
...you know you've really got a hold on me. I can't stay but I can't let go I'm telling you babe I'm high and low
Feel really bummed out today. Was supposed to have an early night last night but it just wasn't happening. Had a brief drink with Mr Daniels and that seemed to help numb things a little. So at around 02:00 I guess I finally got to sleep after drinking JD, watching wrestling and listening to music. I guess we all look at different ways to take away the pain. The added bonus of my relationship with Mr Daniels is that I rarely have a sore head in the morning.
Have an invite to go out with Dennis tonight but in my fragile state I think it might be better to stay home as I can see things getting very fucked up if I take him up on his offer which is a real bummer as I really want to go.
I can feel a decline coming on, have to try and be careful and keep things under control.
Nan does has a brain tumor. It is inoperable. It is going to kill her. Drug they are giving her is to try and shrink the tumor a bit. Side effect of the drug is that it can cause fitting and heart seizure. Mum and uncle David have agreed that nan is not to be resuscitated in the event of heart failure.
They are doing an MRI scan on her tomorrow or Friday to see how bad things are. They also need to clear up the urinary infection too so they can ascertain whether or not the tumor is responsible for the memory loss and what the impact is and see what can be done.
One way or another she is going to die. I just hope that whichever way it is it is quick and painless.
Kids are both really upset, understandably and there's not a lot to say that can make them feel better right now.
Sophie's interview was a strange one. Seems the company she saw are some sort of hairdressing NVQ middleman. They told her she still has to go out and give her CVs to companies and then involved them if she wants to do an NVQ as part of a job. Seems very strange to me. Suspect she'll not bother with that bit. We have just updated her CV and she's off to Chelmsford tomorrow to do a bit of cold calling and distribution.
A hundred days have made me older Since the last time that I saw your pretty face A thousand lies have made me colder And I don't think I can look at this the same But all the miles that separate Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin' As the people leave their way to say hello I've heard this life is overrated But I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight girl its only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go It gets hard but it wont take away my love And when the last one falls When it's all said and done It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight girl its only you and me
Woke up feeling a lot brighter today. So nice to not feel like everything is a total drag and depressing. Hopefully this will continue although there are a couple of memory related things coming up soon that might trip me up plus the news about my nan is worrying me. Oh well, onwards and upwards and off to work *groan*
Nan had a urinary infection which we thought was what had caused her memory problems and mum some said she seemed a bit more lucid yesterday. They did a brain scan today (we assumed to see if she had a stroke or note) but have found a dark mass on her brain. This means that she most likely has a tumour. She will be receiving high powered drugs to try and reduce the swelling on her brain but these carry a cardiac risk so she is being moved to the cardiac ward now.
.........as I was getting off the train tonight and watching people making phone calls and being picked up. I really miss having someone to come home to. I miss coming home to Sharon. It used to be an amazing feeling of anticipation as I got nearer to home knowing that those big brown eyes and gorgeous smile would be waiting for me and kisses and hugs were imminent. I miss the feel of her hair, her smell. God I just miss everything about her. I miss waking up next to her everyday. I miss bacon sandwiches made with Tiger bread and fresh coffee on a Sunday. I miss all the little things that nobody knows about or would understand. Just had a good old cry and feel much better for it.
I think I am flatlining emotionally. Woke up this morning just feeling really weird, almost devoid of feeling altogether. Really need something to pick me up. It's like I used to feel back in my teens when I was a coke and speed addict only now I don't know what I need to give me that shot in the arm.
Am currently reading Heroin Diaries by Nikki Sixx and I remember how it felt to be a junkie and my emotional feelings at the moment kind of match the feelings that are in the book and the way I used to feel after coming down and bouncing back up and down again. Have a funny feeling that I'll be spending a fair bit of time with Mr Daniels every night as he always managed to make things seem not so bad back in July. Luckily I have a good stock at home!
Did manage a brief smile when I remembered that on this day two years ago I had sent Sharon a text asking for a picture and she replied saying that she was chilling out on the sofa watching Big Brother and that she would send me one later :o)
Grrrrrrrr! As if my day wasn't hard enough! Got to Wickford and was waiting for my train when loads of police arrived. Announcement was made that all trains suspended due to trespassers on the lined. first story was that some little scrote hot footed it up the line after escaping the clutches of a Community Support Orifice.
Train was sitting on opposite platform and outside my platform for over 25 minutes (25 minutes after it should have got there). Chinese whispers up and down platform, man laying down in front of train, nutter on train etc etc.
Helicopter started circling at one int too, so exciting NOT!
Not that it has an effect on me but they also announced further delays due to a signal failure at Stratford. Not a good day for National Rail customers.
Train pulled into platform and got on but no movement as there was an inbound train blocking the branch line (oh the joys of single track lines) which couldn't move until London bound train left the station. *sigh*
Finally pulled out of Wickford 65 minutes late, not a happy bunny at all and then to cap it off they decided to make an additional stop at Battlesbridge!!!!!!
Sophie text me to say she'd make me a Jack Daniels and Coke when I get and was true to her word. I certainly needed it!
Sophie also said that January 21st is officially the most depressing day of the year. Whilst as far as anniversaries goes I can think of one that is worse I can definately say that for 2008 so far it's been a shit of a day!
That's what I am supposed to be saying today :o( Today would have been two years that Sharon and I had been together. I really can't believe that it's all over. I miss her so much and it is so wrong that I have been robbed of my perfect life.
Decided to take a few of Sharon's favourite CDs to work with me today to have a few moments with her remembering all the great times that we had.
"I believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep" - Jack Johnson.
So Katie Melua, Jack Johnson and Diana Krall will be having a spin. It feels very wrong to be playing Call Off The Search again. This was a song that was our defining moment, our anthem, we had both found our one true love so the search could be called off as we settled down to a wonderful lifetime together. Shame somebody decided to change the script without us realising.
BETTER TOGETHER There is no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard And no song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart Our dreams, and they are made out of real things Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving
Love is the answer At least for most of the questions in my heart Why are we here and where do we go And how come it's so hard It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving I'll tell you one thing It's always better when we're together
Mmm, it's always better when we're together Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together Well, it's always better when we're together Yeah, it's always better when we're together
And all of these moments just might find a way into my dreams tonight But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see That they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now
Yeah, it's always when we're together Mmm, we're somewhere in between together Well, it's always better when we're together Yeah, it's always better when we're together (mmm...)
I believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep And when I wake up, you look so pretty sleeping next to me But there is not enough time And there is no, no song I could sing And there is no combination of words I could say But I will still tell you one thing We're better together
Woooooooo! Another convincing win for the Chieftains. This was a game and a half. Chieftains dominated the game and were really impressive. Poor old Nathan Craze got pulled after the second period after letting in 6 goals (and being subject to lots of GOALIE, SIEVE chants). Third period was wonderful with a mass brawl on the ice including both netminders going at it. Old time hockey is alive and well at the Riverside rink! Superb stuff.
Well done Chieftains for a great game and a fantastic win!
Sophie at rink side during the warm up:
The gangs all here (apart from Sam who didn't want to be in it LOL:
Chieftains shaking hands with each other after a well deserved win!
Well we went on an outing today. Sam, Sophie, Toni, Aaron and I all headed off to Chelmsford. We went to Pizza Hut and had something to eat before heading off to the Odeon cinema to go and watch St.Trinians. I love that film, it's great!
Following the cinema we went to Starshmucks to kills some time before ice hockey.
Had a horrible argument with Sophie over everything and nothing this morning. Got very heated and we were both very upset by it. Thankfully things simmered down relatively quickly and normality was restored. I really hate it when we go at it with each other like that and I really need to just not react rather than carry things on. Lessons learned for the future there!
Later on Sophie and Sam presented me with a set of bunny ears (thanks a lot guys!)
Dad and Stephanie came over today as we hadn't seen them for ages what with Sophie being in and out of hospital and illness over Xmas. We exchanged late Xmas presents and I was given a Rock God T-shirt and a fantastic Star Wars Vault book.
Toni and Aaron came over and all seven of us went to The Lodge for a meal. It was nice to spend time with family and friends and just chill out.
Evening was spent just relaxing with JD and coke and watching a DVD.
Sophie and I took a walk into town today to get a couple of bits from Asda. We bumped into Barry en route and had a little chat with him which was nice to do.
On the way back we saw a Toyota Yaris that had been modified but very badly. Sophie was disgusted as likes the Yaris and I suggested that we should start a new TV show called "Flump My Ride". The idea is that you take a perfectly decent car and then completely ruin it with stupid body modifications and paintwork. Wonder if it will catch on? LOL
Well Sophie is recovering pretty well. Her stitches are healing well and she is getting about (albeit a lot slower that normal). There seems to be more and more bruising appearing and despite the four minute sets of stitches the operation was obviously more traumatic than the wounds would indicate. We are going for a walk in the morning as she is keen to get out of the house and get some air and exercise.
Mum phoned me tonight to say that my nan is in hospital. She had been having some confusion and memory problems along with her illness over Xmas. Mum went out to get some stuff yesterday only to return home and find nan on the floor with no knowledge of what happened. Once at the hospital the diagnosed a urinary infection which is being treated with ant-biotics (and is also a common cause of memory problems in the elderly) so hopefully once that has been cleared up she will become a bit more lucid and like her old self again.
Have my dad and Stephanie coming over tomorrow to have a catch up and go for a meal. Haven't seen them for quite a while so should be good fun. Toni and Aaron are also descending upon us once again for another weekend of madness and ice hockey!
I am sorry this is so childish but it made out whole office laugh and could well make quote of the week. We were just talking about cocker-knees and started singing songs sung by Mr Van Dyke from Mary Poppins. Paul W said, "There's nothing like a bit of Dick in the afternoon is there?" at which point the whole office cracked up and Pete spluttered tea everywhere!
Spent a bit of time this afternoon talking to my good friend Angie about my emotions and feelings. Her partner died seven years ago so she has a lot of experience to share with me. I won't go into details but I am now feeling a lot more positive and certainly nowhere near as confused as I was and I feel as though it is safe to come out from under my stone. Thank you Angie, you are a great friend!
Having a really bad emotion day today. Suffering from emotional lunacy! Feel all out of sorts and confused. Really miss Sharon. Yesterday I was fine and suddenly I am all down and depressed. Can't cope when I get like this, I hate it. I am all tearful and really don't know why. Could quite happily go back to bed and just stay there indefinately right now :(
I took a photo of Sophie at the hospitals yesterday. She is allergic to eggs and nuts and so has to wear a wristband to that effect. I looked down at her arm at one point and this was so funny that it had to be done!
A million promises were broken in the sea of lies A million words were spoken in the depth of your eyes Throwing all doubts away Hope my words let you stay
Imagine we can find a way to live in paradise Imagine we could get a vision that never dies Nothing's gonna be the same and I promise this way For you... I will find a brand new world What we share is magic, what we share is fantasy Don't believe it's all a mystery - believe in me Like a small inner flame Reaching out for an aim
Imagine we could find...
Imagine we can find a way to live in paradise Imagine we could get a vision that never dies
We will never say goodbye - that is forever Now I know you don't believe - but never say never
Nothing's gonna be the same and I promise this way For you... I will find a brand new world
Ahhh, Lloyd Grossman................. ..........well actually no, not him!
Through the keyhole surgery! Sophie finally had her gall bladder operation today. All went successfully and she is back home already. So glad that this little saga is finally over. Big thank you to everybody that sent their best wishes to Sophie.
Despite the stresses of being at the hospital today I can definately say that it has been a very GOOD day!
Sophie went into Chelmsford today to Hepcat and got her nose sorted out. Fortunately it hadn't healed beyond repair so she now has a new nose ring in. If she had waited until after her operation she would have had to let it completely heal up and then have it pierced again so we are both glad it is sorted.
Rang the hospital and have sorted out transportation to get us there in the morning and we are now being picked up by car at 06:40!
Sophie's nerves are starting to kick in and she is tired of waiting now and just wants it all to be done with!
Not in work today due to an iffy stomach, must have been sharing Mike's rough goats as it definately wasn't a bad prawn and I've not been near a curry!
Wow!!!!!!!!!!! Was that ever a great game of hockey. Not sure what happened but the team were really fired up tonight and played really really well. It was 0 - 0 at the end of the first with some great play from the Chieftains and Wightlink's netminder Sojack making some cracking saves. The second period ended up 6 - 0 and poor old Sojack ended up on the wrong end of my GOALIE, SIEVE chat. Third period the Chieftains seemed to ease up a little and this gave Wightlink the chance to deny Moffat his shut out. A washed out goal (due to high sticks) and then one final one showed that the Chieftains were still on the attack. Cracking game and a much needed, and deserved win!
In other hockey results the Capitals got humped 10 - 2 by Basingstoke Bison (in a MUST win game) last night (a game we were going to go to but decided not to at the last minute thank god) only to then pull out all the stops and beat Nottingham Panthers 3 - 0 tonight.
Went into Chelmsford this afternoon to pick up a few bits and get Sophie some new jeans. Decided to eat in town before going to ice hockey so Toni, Aaron, Sam, Sophie and I all headed off to Que Pasa. Food was excellent, good value for money, and well worth a return visit (even if they got a bit confused over what food was available).
Sophie woke up this morning to find out that her nose stud fallen out and that she couldn't get it back in again as it had started to heal already. Unfortunately Hepcat is closed on a Sunday so she'll have to go into Chelmsford tomorrow to try and get it sorted out.
Toni and I headed off to London to meet Dennis for a drink last night. I got really stressed as the trains were all up the creek due to the usual farcical maintenance work. Fortunately Dennis was also running late so we ended up meeting him at The Ship on Wardour Street at 21:30. Had a few drinks there, and met Dennis' friends Jonty and Liam. Once Dennis felt lubricated enough we then headed off down the "walk of shame" to the Intrepid Fox.
It was all a bit frosty to start with as Sarah (one of the barmaids) was not talking to Dennis at all and didn't acknowledge my presence until Dennis had gone for a smoke. We drank plenty more, met Ash (another barman) and Max (a Fox DJ). Spent a short time on the "metal floor" to avoid the frost area before running back with out ears bleeding.
We settled on a table and started talking to a couple from Edinburgh, Chris and Caroline, and had a bit of a giggle with them and the promise of keeping in touch for drinks when we visit Edinburgh or they are back in London.
Dennis decided to bail out at around 01:45 so we grabbed a night bus to Stratford and then paid a hellish £45 to get a taxi home. Was a great night though and can't wait to do it again. Have invited Dennis round for beer, food, DVDs and music one night and he also once to come along to Vendetta too.
Rang Dennis to talk about going out tonight as Vendetta had been cancelled and was on the phone for ages talking to him. He is really really low at the moment and having a really bad time of things and they all just keep piling up. Hopefully he'll have a change of luck soon, starting with a job, and then everything will start to resolve itself.
Found out last night that the opening of Vendetta Club tonight has been cancelled due to a problem with the soundproof windows! Totally gutted as I was looking forward to going to this. They might be opening on the 9th February but that then gives me fixture congestion as I have just booked tickets to see Peppermint Creeps in Camden. As for tonight, I have sent a text to Dennis to see what he is doing so Toni and I may well trek off to the Intrepid Fox to meet him.
