Then it hit me............

.........as I was getting off the train tonight and watching people making phone calls and being picked up. I really miss having someone to come home to. I miss coming home to Sharon. It used to be an amazing feeling of anticipation as I got nearer to home knowing that those big brown eyes and gorgeous smile would be waiting for me and kisses and hugs were imminent. I miss the feel of her hair, her smell. God I just miss everything about her. I miss waking up next to her everyday. I miss bacon sandwiches made with Tiger bread and fresh coffee on a Sunday. I miss all the little things that nobody knows about or would understand. Just had a good old cry and feel much better for it.